In May of 2014 I started to get a feeling that something was wrong with my marriage. For whatever reason (still not sure what possessed me to do this) I went over our cell phone records. I found out that there were 150 texts between my wife and the father of my daughters friend. I completely lost it. I didn't get any guidance from sites like this. I confronted immediately. While going through her phone I accidentally but dialed the POSOM. He texted right back and asked if she but dialed. I texted back " ya sorry". He replied "darn". Nothing she could tell me explained that. As far as I was concerned that was the smoking gun. Case closed. She denied any wrong doing. While getting ready for work I decided to comb over the records again. I noticed 2 picture messages that were sent to me and one minute later to him. I know what pics she sent me. They were or her exposing herself in her underwear. Showing her breasts and her vagina. I woke her up and asked her what pics she sent him. Of course she denied everything but admitted to having a crush on him. Ya right. I told her I was divorcing her and was going ruin everything of hers. II then went to work. I came home early and found out she had moved out with the kids, took all the money out of our bank account, and wouldn't answer my phonecalls. She came home later that evening to talk. She said I scared her and that is why she left. She still denied everything. I installed Spyware on her phone and keyloggers on the 2 computers. We got along OK for the rest of the week. That weekend I told her that I did not believe her and to tell me the truth. She confessed to sleeping with him. I took about a month to get all of the details. I exposed this to my family. Made her expose herself to her family. I told the OM wife. I started a text app and acted like I was my wife to the OM. I was able to recover some emails through him. Her story seemed to be backed up by his wife and the emails. I think she has been remorseful from DDAY but who knows. I was distraught and threatened suicide. She called the police and I was put on suicide watch for 2 days. Could not work for over a week. Typical things that everyone seems to go through when your life falls apart like weight loss, nightmares, ect. The cops that arrested me and the nurses at the facility that I was stuck in all told me to ditch her. She was crying day in and day out for what seems like forever. Wrote the no contact letter. Changed her phone number. Cancelled her email addresses. Begged for forgiveness. I told her that if she wanted me that bad she was going to have to watch me have sex with another woman. I hired an escort and did the deed in front of her. She said she felt like we could put this behind us finally. This was about 2 months after discovery. We where in marriage counseling from that point on. I started going to the gym regularly. I got in really decent shape and was listening to motivational speakers. We started going to church. But I was still depressed. I put up a profile on a dating site and proceeded to talk to countless people. 2 of these turned into EAs. At one point I almost left my wife for one of these girls. My wife was extremely upset and told my daughter. I stayed. She has been in contact with the other woman. This woman claims to be pregnant with my child. I never slept with her but my wife believes her. Not sure why she says she is pregnant but I think she is trying to break up my marriage. My wife says she will help raise the kid. Haven't heard from this woman in a couple of weeks. Since then things have calmed down. Not sure what is going to be the result of all this but this is where I am at. I know my wife has had a hard time dealing with everything. I still have not committed to staying with her
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It's a mess but if you want to save your marriage it will require a ton of work. Your wife seems committed in the description now but can you?
The only way to know is face why you don't trust your wife and why you don't trust yourself.
Howdy. What do YOU want? Do you want to salvage it?
There's a Triage post with 10 questions - @angeline has it in her signature line. Find it and answer those here. You'll get help.
What other reading / research have you done?
How will you live well today?
Do the triage questions please...
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1) We have been married for 11 years. Been together for 13 I am 38 and she is 33. We have 2 kids. One is 3 and has special needs. The other is 9. I am 5'11" and 200 lbs. She is 5'4" and 120 lbs. We are pretty fairly matched in hotness. I am decently muscular and she in decent shape.
2) No medical conditions for me. I work out regularly. She has Abad back and is on pain medication plus birth control.
3) I'm in good shape here too. Girls find me attractive. I have a good job. Never been fired or unemployed. She is a SAHM. She has a botched boob job that some might find objectionable. All cars are in good shape and paid for. Not much debt and live in a great neighborhood.
4) My biggest moment of neglect was when our son was born with special needs. I wasn't there emotionally for her. I didn't want another kid but she did. She said she would divorce if I didn't so I was bitter. I completely failed after the kid was born. She began an EA/PA 1 year later. I have cheated numerous times after, mostly EA's.
5) As of right now there is no outside serial sources that I know of. We have both been transparent. We both have GPS locators on us.
6) Sex went bad 1year ago. I have been the problem. I just don't want to with her. I kinda feel like I messed up my desire for her by seeing what else was out there. Girls have been very responsive to me even when my wife is present. We have not had Sex in months.
7) In the beginning of our relationship Sex was very passionate and frequent. Actually has been our whole marriage. Wife would mostly initiate. I know that is not good. That did change after our mess. I was taking control. Until I stopped having Sex With her all together.
8) No elephants except all of the cheating.
9) We both struggle to have control of the relationship. This usually ends up in fighting.
10) We had a really good relationship at first. We were spontaneous and would go on trips. She was my best friend. Now that we have kids we don't do much at all. I am completely bored. She likes to stay home. She doesn't want to go anywhere because her back hurts. She insists that I stay home due to lack of trust.
What triggers this? Argument heats up, she lashes out physically? That has to stop - today, NOW.
I asked you before, what do you want?
Y'all have Critical Moments of Neglect (CMNs) galore here - you are going to have to do some mega-heavy lifting, as Blackwulf mentioned earlier.
How will you live well today?
Affairs plus physical violence from her.
I'm all for saving relationships worth salvaging, but I don't think this one is. I rarely post this picture. I save it for really bad situations.
I would get out, and start working on you. Run a MAP, and improve your boundaries. You need to learn why you are willing to accept the treatment that you have been receiving.
You went a little over the top, but extreme stress can do that. Unfortunately, your reactionary moves did far more to destabilize the marriage and harm it.
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Please consider calling the domestic abuse hotline.
http://www.thehotline.org
http://marriedmansexlife.com/2014/03/violence-deep-emotion-and-rational-talk/
“I’m going to plead with you, do not cross us. Because if you do, the survivors will write about what we do here for 10,000 years.” General James Mattis, USMC
Taking the kids to another state isn't a foregone conclusion. Get the legal advice and go from there.
Just because someone threatens something like that, doesn't mean it can actually happen. She sounds unhinged, frankly. Threats like that are emotional abuse meant to control your behavior.
An attorney can guide you in dealing with her physical abuse in the way that will best benefit you in regards to your rights and property as well as your custody of the children should divorce occur, and can explain how things really work in the local court system.
I suspect that after meeting with an attorney, you will leave with a sense of relief.
My wife tried to use the "I'll pack up the kids and move across country." to me years ago. Whether she really meant it or not didn't matter. I take any threat seriously, because the person who is making the threats actually thought of doing what they said before they said it.
It scared the shit out of me until I talked to an attorney, who laughed and told me that if my wife actually tried to do that, she would end up in jail and I would end up with full custody of my children so fast it would make both of our heads spin.
Threats like she is making have power and can sway your decision-making, because you think of the worst case scenarios. When you talk to an attorney and find out what the facts actually are, you take away the power of the other person to terrorize you.
“I’m going to plead with you, do not cross us. Because if you do, the survivors will write about what we do here for 10,000 years.” General James Mattis, USMC
OK, so, Step 1 for you. When both of you are in a calm, peaceful state, call a meeting. And it goes like this: "OK, henceforth and forever more, there is no Yelling. No Slapping. No screaming, cursing, ranting and raving. That.is.finished. I have done it, you have done it, so I'm not throwing blame. I am, however, saying that it is no more. We will hash out disagreements in a civil tone. " And get her to agree to this - literally I would say "Do you agree?" and she will. If she doesn't, see Crashaxe's pic above.
If you want to make this work, you're gonna have to Captain the hell out of this. If you wanna bail, then bail. This place will help you do the hard work if you want to - and there is a LOT of hard work in front of you, either with Stay or Go frankly.
Welcome aboard man.
How will you live well today?