Hehe. I am not talking about erections here...
. Maybe be some of you are experiencing or have experienced the same challenge in your marriage relationship.
Background: I am an empath - sensitive - and hubby very straight forward, goal and results-driven. We work together in our business.
Challenge: When he is away on business I feel free and relaxed and focussed. The "lid is off". When he is around I feel more stressed- like I have a lid on me. I have told myself many times to just carry on the way I was while he was away, but in no time, I am stuck again. I kind off know what the problem is - it has to do with personal value and confidence- but have in 18 years not succeeded in working out a strategy for keeping that damned lid off. Of course he responds to me in a different way when the lid is off because I am then more attractive.
I would appreciate some pointers if anyone who may have the same kind of makeup as me and has had success, has any advice! No quick fixes. Just straight forward practical advice. Tx
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I see @JellyBean that you are, like me, an enneagram 9w1 which means you and I may have similar frames. Having a partner who is almost directly the opposite can be a huge challenge. We almost got divorced, first his decision which he changed once I became more attractive and self sufficient, ( he actually asked me not to be a doormat), then my decision when I thought we were reconnecting too slowly. Then we decided that we both wanted to stay and have gone through huge growth over the past 3 years.
Deep down I know that I have to find my equilibrium again and break free from the insecurity and anxiety and become an emotionally healthy person without making him responsible for my happiness. @LadyOrTheTyger I do need quality alone time and do get it. We work together though so during the day I am an employee and he does not treat me differently because we are married. He is simply task and results driven and I am more relationship driven which poses a challenge!
He is actually a warm, loving and caring person who will do anything for me and support me in anything I want to do. Thats why I am asking for advice. I need help in otder to make a serious mind - shift.