Forty seven year old, have been running the MAP for a while and occasionally lurking here. Started backsliding around February and some old problems re-surfaced, figured out I needed a kick in the pants.
Have read the primer, Mindful Attractiveness Plan and "How to answer do these pants make me look fat" for the record.
On to the triage:
"Medications, medical issues, birth control history and the all-purpose general physical health of both of you"
Me: Levitra for ED based on doctor telling me it is effective when taken with food (unlike viagra) and is less likely to cause priapism.
Her: Perimenopause, untreated.
Birth control: The pill until shortly after we were married, then diaphram for a few months, condoms since then. Did put pressure on me to have a vasectomy but I didn't feel that was a good thing to do. Had not been an issue since I discovered and explained the testosterone implications.
Structural Issues
The only thing that comes to mind is when we met I was living in Europe and she was on the West Coast. I got a job on the East Coast as I felt it would be a better compromise than her moving to Europe she could not work there. She is fairly work focused.
Her assumption was that I would easily be able to find a job on the West coast within a couple of years so she could move back closer to her family. As I am very specialized engineer the move has not happen and 15 years later we are still on the East Coast with me working at the same job.
I do have a decent job, I earn 80k+ a year and have a defined benefit pension. Her job earns 60k+ a year with a 401k type scheme.
My job has had a fair bit of travel over the last few 3~4 years. I was travelling 2~3 weeks out of 4 for 3~4 days a week. This year I was promoted and no longer have to do this amount of travel. Travel still provokes resentment though.
Last issue is that both her parents were alcoholics. This can really mess a kid up. Typically the children of alcoholics try and control their lives more than other people, she does this but it's not to the point of being at all dysfunctional. A typical statement would be "I can believe how some women will let a man control them."
Dharma, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.
Progress not perfection.
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Progress not perfection.
Progress not perfection.
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Progress not perfection.
1. Understood maybe a scheduled limit in future but has to be "healthy" once reboot is done.
2. Have been doing this but effects not as strong. Will think about program with muscle isolation.
3. Understood, I enjoy effects of MAP for themselves.
4. Means more FO type enthusiasm.
Progress not perfection.
I don't hold back from bringing dominance to the bedroom when the time is right, unlike in the pre-MMSLP days.
Progress not perfection.
Progress not perfection.
You may also find this blog post helpful:
http://marriedmansexlife.com/2013/06/explaining-the-in-her-or-on-her-rule/
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"I always had the feeling she was scared of me or what I might become with the right stimulus."
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2. My Dr. steered me away from Cialis due to priapism and levitra works in 15 minutes rather than 30. I have used Cialis and the 36 hour thing would be overwhelming right now, depending on dosage. Neither of us are HD enough to want it 3 times in a day and a half. Most ever we'd once a day during pregnancy.
3. Have already have had first unaided PiV after two weeks of quitting porn and MB.
4. Need to look at this but think I will need to push through a lot of resistance to get her there.
5. Last time I suggested this was met with "I'm not going to take time off to go to the Dr. to have my waahoo poked for something that only you want." My diagnosis is a big case of "Good Girl Syndrome." Last time we had sex she pushed me half into her uncovered and nearly came on the spot before she pulled herself off and has talked fondly of "naked" sex before. Think there is lingering resentment over me not getting vasectomy. Have explained why I think this would be a bad idea and she seemed to accept but there is crappy attitude any time BC is brought up.
Have been through the www.yourbrainonporn.com site and am very aware of what I need to do to try and lose the ED and fix myself.
Progress not perfection.
With regard to the BC
Progress not perfection.
With regard to BC I need to MAP some more and up my attractiveness to her before it can be discussed again.
Progress not perfection.
Was reviewing this thread. Notice a pattern of backsliding over winter, need to consider SADD more seriously and address in revised MAP.
As regards the original @DaveBowman question, "What do you want from sex?" this post from /r/deadbedrooms would be like winning the lottery for me and about as likely. Reads as though it could be trolling though, 2-4 times per day!
Had a minor shit test by text today but thing I did OK. Must maintain frame, must maintain frame, must maintain frame.Progress not perfection.
Read Athol's Leadership Moments blog, and anything suggested at the end "you might also like".
I think the condom issue combined with your porn-created lack of fire is a problem. Overall it sounds like you just need some continuity, some fun, and to gradually increase alpha behavior, outside then inside the bedroom. For example, spanking - once this tension is past, playfully pat her ass if she makes a mistake while you're both in the kitchen, like leaves the fridge open and wastes electricity. When you give her a hug, slide your hands down and grab her ass and groan like its the best thing you've ever had in your hands. Stuff like that. Even in someone predisposed, you can't just start right off with spanking. Just playful pats and swats.
Remember to play!
Do the right thing, whether anyone is watching or not.
Be married, until you are not.
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I think that work for her is a big issue. It's also part of the boredom. I've noticed that over the years within 6-18 months of starting a job she is convinced that the workplace is an emotionally toxic hell hole. For the longest part of our marriage I have come home to a daily victim puke about her colleagues antics of the day. Part of that is just the normal wear and tear of being a husband but I believe that the issue there is that work is a transaction, labor for pay and she is expecting validation to be a part of that transaction and no way is she going to get that as a writer editor.
From what I understand the guy may have no knowledge of her plan to get him back here. He is currently on the other coast. Also the associations that she has trained with typically host the speakers for conferences but don't pay them much.
Progress not perfection.
Stop watching porn. It ruins you and your mental ability to focus on her.
Into Phase 3..
Those Who Dare......Win. "What gives you fear today...Gives you Strength tomorrow.."During my MAP hiatus I had a couple of single occurrence slip ups. I realized I had to get this under control so I went back to noFap. Am currently about 100 days porn and masturbation free and need to keep this going indefintely. Have probably MO or watched porn 5 times this year, mostly in the first half of the year.
Since my teens I had been using my active imagination to fantasize porn scripts in my head while fapping. Lately this had switched over to doing this by edging, just bad, bad, bad. I was deluding myself that this was not fapping and was probably sapping my energy and sabotaging my MAP.
Was on a 30 day no-edge/fantasy streak but had a very small slip recently, fantasizing about the wife.
As per YBOP I am no longer so much interested in spanking and the kinky stuff so I counting it as progress.
She is responding, we have some pretty raunchy lingerie which is her favorite stuff and have been experimenting with some non-condom PiV at safe times of the month, either using withdrawal or switching back to condoms.
Progress not perfection.