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Hi everyone,
New to MMSL, just posted in the intro forum, and want to expand a bit on my situation.
Early 30s, married for five years (more about that kind of stuff in the intro thread). I'm fairly smart, and I don't begin to pretend that all of my problems are caused by external factors. If anything I'm fairly hard on myself and tend to look inwardly when trying to assess a problem. Sexually speaking, I'm fairly curious. I think sex and sexuality are healthy and I am intrigued by the subject. I read about sex and relationships, and have come to understand that having a satisfying sexual relationship has at least as much to do with yourself as it does your partner.
I struggle with energy and I sometimes have trouble motivating myself even to do mundane tasks. I'm also very hard on myself when I don't meet my own (high) expectations. I hate feeling like a loser, and right now I'm going through a stretch where I really can't shake the fact that, given the opportunities I've had, I should be a better person that what I've become. I think my lack of energy and lack of confidence combine to wreck havoc on my sex drive. I often feel loathe to deal with my sexual relationship because it seems like too daunting a task, and I also don't feel very confident in my own body or abilities to perform the task. I end up hating myself because I have no energy to bother fixing myself. It's a bit of a vicious cycle.
My wife is basically amazing at everything with two possible exceptions (that I'll get to later). She is a wonderful mother - basically a complete natural. She's smart and very kind to others. She spends most of her time trying to think up ways to brighten someone else's day. She takes home a decent income which, when combined with mine, leaves us with very little to worry about financially. She sucks at communication and sexuality. By communication I mean that I feel like she is very hesitant to share exactly what she's thinking / feeling / desiring in a straightforward sort of way (both about sexual matters and all other matters). She likes to hint at things and come at what she's really thinking from weird hidden angles. I think this ends up frustrating both of us, because I don't always know what she wants, and she'd rather just be sad about me not getting her message than actually be straightforward about what she's thinking.
On the sexual side, she is not very curious. And not in a "won't try new things" way. I don't see a lot of interest from her in her own sexuality. It seems like she doesn't think about it very much. I don't think she has any fetishes or turnons. I'd be extremely surprised if she's ever read anything about sex. I find this difficult, probably because I'm the opposite, but also because I know there are a lot of women who are curious about sex and sexuality and making it a fulfilling part of their lives. I am drawn to people that have an interest in something, and sex is no different.
She is an attractive woman, but I haven't been feeling drawn to her and her lack of sexual curiosity is a big part of that. Her body has changed since our daughter came along, which is to be expected. On the other hand, I don't know whether she is really doing as much as she can to take care of herself physically. I don't pressure about this because I know it can be a touchy subject, but it impacts my interest level.
We don't have a lot of sex since our daughter was born. But we didn't really do it very much before that either. We struggled for some time with miscarriages. For about 3 years sex became a job. But even before that I can't say sex was great. It was more frequent for sure, but not THAT frequent or satisfying. It got to the point where we would both be almost relieved when the other person said they didn't really fee like having sex.
I want a great sex life and I want a great relationship. I love my wife and I don't want our marriage to fail, but I don't believe a marriage can be truly great without a satisfying sex life. I don't blame my wife for our sexual troubles. I'm here because I want to create a strategy for working through our problems together.
So that's why I'm here. I'll be doing as much reading here as I can, and I'll be following the discussion boards as well.
Thanks for having me.
Comments
You didn't say if you read the book yet. I also highly recommend "No More Mr. Nice Guy" and "The way of the superior man" and as a quick read, this: http://www.craigslist.org/about/best/sea/561877622.html
Your wife sounds like she has a lot of potential. You have to unlock it.
Two things: one, you may want to get your testosterone level checked. Two, you need to start an exercise regimen (lifting is prescribed around here more than cardio, but I think a balance of both is important). This should help increase your energy level once you get the juices flowing regularly.
Your story isn't different from several others on here. Quality, not quantity, has been the goal of several participants and you'll get helpful ideas here.
"Treating her like a princess didn't make me a prince, it made me a servant."
Link to triage questions: http://marriedmansexlife.com/triage-your-relationship-and-the-911-er-category/
It may be fine but we've seen a lot of young guys with low levels. Age is not the only factor. There are other causes.
http://www.m.webmd.com/a-to-z-guides/testosterone-replacement-therapy
All men are great men, most fail to see the greatness in themselves.
Power, Passion, Principle and Purpose: The Wild Man Project
My most popular articles: The Art of the Apology (also on video), The Basics of Assertiveness, The Art of Friendship
Thanks for the advice, everyone.
Remember to keep this about you. Sex is part of the overall plan, but the changes and improvements in your life need to be focused on you and how you interact with your wife, daughter and the world.
All men are great men, most fail to see the greatness in themselves.
Power, Passion, Principle and Purpose: The Wild Man Project
My most popular articles: The Art of the Apology (also on video), The Basics of Assertiveness, The Art of Friendship