My wife is the popular fun one. People gravitate to her. She has beta orbiters. She is easy to talk to and not hard on the eyes. In conversation, she gets about 90% of the eye contact while I could practically walk away un-noticed. People go out of their way to ask about her. They like having her around. They find reasons to be around her.
I find this annoying. And I've realized that this is entirely my problem.
It's a sign I'm not being myself, holding back, and not enjoying myself. I'm too sensitive. That I often hang around people who, frankly, are 'her' friends and not very interesting to me. Many of her friends have annoying husbands and I end end up 'tagging along' to do things I'd never want to do. I've been a quiet, go-along, +1 sidekick. THAT'S annoying.
My wife makes decisions on her own, that I wouldn't make without her. She plans things, while I'm not comfortable deciding our schedule or commiting to spending money.
This annoys me. But again, my fault. Nothing is really stopping me from scheduling events.
....something to think about.
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You mention how you aren't really doing what you want with your wife.
Nor are you doing what you want to when you are with your wife's friends husbands.
Do you have friends you spend time with (it's ok to say no....)?
Do you feel like you know what it is you'd RATHER being doing when you are with the wife's friends husbands??
I suggest giving her simple compliance tests every day that she can pass without noticing (e.g. Asking her to make you a cup of coffee, drop something off at the cleaners). Make sure you ask her to do something for you that you could easily do yourself and that she does it!
Each one if these she does for you will slowly build leadership momentum. This is something I am doing and it is rewriting the leadership balance between us in my favor