And one thing regarding to multiple orgasms to keep in mind - she might have something to lose from that.

At least for me, after the O everything is feeling really great, I'm relaxed and soppy and happy. The second and third can be amazing. But, depending on how easily she will get a second one, there is something from a small to even a very high probability "risk" for the woman to go for the second one. Getting all worked up again, but not getting the O or getting a very soft and not-powerful O can be very frustrating. It's (at least for me) totally different than to not get to the first O, as in the worst case it's taking away the amazing feeling of peace and happiness you got from the O and replacing it with mild or severe frustration. Not saying that it wouldn't be worth going for, the rewards can be really great; but it's definitely not a "nothing to lose"-situation either.

Thanks @PhoenixDown ! Will definitely have to check out and learn, got not much time over in August, but September is very close  

I'm not sure if my experiences collide with your situation, so take my thoughts with a grain of salt.

You've apologized, and that's good and necessary. Well done. Buy, as a girl, it's very hard for me to lust or love or respect a man who's behaving apologically (not sure if you do, but it feels for me that you're in the risk to do so at least). Others can tell you better than me, how you should act towards your gf, i'm not sure. But i think the most important part is to start improving your self and your enviroment now, show that you're something not worth missing If you got the MAP book, start there. If it's not arrived yet, think of something that needs to be done, and do it. It will also help you to keep your mindset clear about that you're a worthy person of value, even when things weel bad.

Strength to you!