Didn't like where I was, or how my old thread sounded. Was definately off track. So I took some time off. Starting fresh.
Worked out some of my medical mysteries and I'm feeling better. The spasms, tics, and parathesias are gone, the fatigue and weakness turned out to be a side effect of a statin medication. My T is up a bit, enough to just monitor for now.
I need to work on my usual stuff:
Fun. Actually have improved this some. Maybe moved the needle from "fun coma" to "average guy". I know, shocking. But true.
Calm confidence. I need to get back up to the level where I feel this way. I was pretty beaten down for a while. Realizing that I need this to be above average to be at my best - it's my defense against......well, most things.
Fitness. For me fitness is mostly health and stress relief. I'm back at it. Looking for something new to do.
Social. I haven't really wanted to be around people much since summer. And especially now - as a middle of the road independent type I don't fit in in my very conservative town or my very liberal workplace, not during election season anyway. Good time to hide away. But better to get out some now. It's safe now, right?
That's about it.